broken

this is what i'm feeling this week...uncertain, worried, confused, doubtful, angry, ashamed, guilty...i thought this won't happen again. you promised, remember?

i am torn between worrying and being mad. i am at the point of self-pity for feeling this way. funny how different emotions can actually come crashing all at the same time.

but this ain't a joke. i hate this. i wanna hate you...but i can't. or maybe i don't want to.